In this episode, I’ll get personal about my journey from feeling completely unsafe and female relationships to leaning into and trusting the totality of Sacred Sisterhood.

I spent over 20 years finding female friendships very confusing and very scary. The moment I learned about my biological dad changed the way I saw the world. Mix that with feeling “too much” — too loud, too big, too over the top — I chose to surround myself with men.

I share the feeling of experiencing my first entry point into female friendship, and how finding female community and union in different spaces allowed me to open up to others and experience love. When I met my sister soulmate (of 20 years), it was a launch pad for true, unconditional love. But in my decision to get sober, I was afraid that everything I attached

to would be gone. I was worried that if I stopped drinking the fun would be over and somehow the love would leave. . What I learned is that choosing my health and happiness didn’t take away from our love or relationship. This was Sacred Sisterhood.

In the framework of codependency, being “too much” means that someone doesn’t know what to do in the presence of you. The opposite of that is realizing that there is space for all of us to be exactly who we are. Unconditional love is present, regardless.

Thank you for listening and thank you to my podcast producer Media Midwife Ahri Golden for helping me bring my story to life.

Topics Covered:

• How learning about my biological dad changed the way I saw the world
• Survival mechanisms when caretakers aren’t emotionally regulated
• The change I experienced from surrounding myself with true female community
• How female relationships in my teens reflected that I was “too much”
• The reassurance of intertwined, beautiful, platonic sisterhood
• How the “Too Much” twins allowed me to become the female friend I always wanted to be
• Pregnancy, sobriety, and realizing I could still choose and give love
• The lesson that there is space for everybody to be fully themselves

Credit:

• Sponsored by Supah Star Dark Chocolate Superfood Bars and Godseye Oils
• Podcast Production by Media Midwife Ahri Golden
• Podcast art by Megan Schiller